Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Reflections ~ and lightning

Personally, there are very few women that I like. Mostly, I have found them to be sneaky and duplicitous. Yes, I said it; but I'm allowed to, I'm a woman too! I have always preferred the company of men, for the most part. My good friends in rl are like me; up front, and maybe a bit naive.
Sexually, I have always believed that I am mostly straight, not even with the slightest bisexual bent, but basically straight. I had come to believe that women lead men on by telling them that they will play with other women or that they are "bi", promising entertainment for the future that may or may not appear.
(See what I meant about duplicitous and sneaky?)

However, if someone has asked me if I am straight, bi...whatever...I have always answered, with this..."I am sexual, and my sexuality is usually expressed with men." On rare occasions, there is that unique woman that elicits the same response in me. I have to say, on the practical side, does it seem smart to eliminate half of the population from consideration because of a few preconceived notions of one's sexuality? Besides...for me, it is primarily about attraction to the person. (Mostly, that attraction is to a truly dominant person.)

~~Takes a deep breath and dives through the looking glass~~

When I was very new here on sl, I had come to Dark Den as a switch. While wandering around there, I met a slave girl named beast. She was very charming, and very clever...I was enchanted, and I remain so, as I have said in previous posts.
Beast has another side, that of La Presidente. I was afraid that La Presidente might be a different kind of person to the sweet and charming girl I knew as beast. The dark side, if you will. I was afraid that my previous encounters with beast might influence La Presidente to act in a manner that would dash my favorable impression. Though I was a bit intimidated by her, I was still drawn, and inspite of her frequent mention of my shoes when I was in a private residence...a deep friendship has developed.

All I can say is this...I am a very lucky girl. I cannot believe that lightning has struck twice; with two facets of the same person. There are parts of me that are blossoming.
I cannot find the words...

Home sweet home...

Nuff said?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Safe words

So ...

I have been working on my limits here on sl. One of the things that I had to remember is my safe word.

My safeword is "Mercy"

Interesting choice, some have said, because it might be taken as "merci" The french word for thank you.

I prefer to think it means, "Thank you, I have had quite enough, for now"

Here in SL, safe words are really meant to keep us safe, not physically... but emotionally... spiritually...psychologically. One can be as traumatized here as anywhere else.

Part of SSC is trying to keep that from happening.
More on Safe Sane and Consensual in a later post.

In rl I live in a RACK household. My Master is well aware of my limits and my mindset. These have been learned over time and the trust that I have is complete Hence, I have not felt the need for Mercy, nor has he expected to hear my safe word in a very, very long time.
I do have another problem. I slip into subspace so easily, it would be difficult or me to know that it is time to safeword. So there have been times when he was aware that we were at a point where play should stop, even when I was not aware of it at the time. Tell me, why would I not trust him completely now?

How does one stop that in SL? I am not sure that I want to. Just want to be certain that the person I am with is trustworthy and responsible.

Actually, that is good advice on both sides of the mirror...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Spinner...or...what is it with guys anyway?

Speaking of limits...

OK it is not really a limit but what is it about guys and having to mention my height?

I am very nearly 5 feet tall. I know that in sl where the women are all 6'8" That may be unusual...but really!!

I like the way, I am and it happens to be the perfect height for a fairy, not an Amazon, so there!

And one other thing? I had to ask around to find out what a spinner was.... really...I am not sure if they have overinflated....ummm egos... or they think that even at 4'11"...oh nevermind!

That's the limit!

I was reminded recently that I need to place my limits in my profile, but I was also reminded that not all limits are things that you can state at all, simply because I may not be aware of them as possibilities.

There are things that can be done in sl that really I cannot imagine being possible in rl. Though with a little imagination, I guess... some of it might be possible?
Knowledge, it is a good thing but also what got Eve the bad rep. I have a few questions before I start to place my limits in my profile.
Am I supposed to know about all of the possible kinks to put them on a list?
What do I do if I do encounter one that I am not aware of?
There are ways of taking care of these things.