Saturday, June 6, 2009

GOR-addiction or what?

OK, I will say it here and in public. My name is Pippa and I like Gor. I think that some of the best RP occurs there. I happen to like the defined roles. This is a type of addiction that keeps drawing me back.

It is where I started in RP, before there was an SL. Gor is where I learned to crawl, to walk, and to crawl again, if needed. (RP wise that is)

I love the ritual, the clearly defined roles, the black and whiteness of it all.

That being said, I have been disillusioned by what I have seen on SL Gor. From my scant wanderings and from talking to a few people, I have had the impression of a bunch of exiles from World of Warcraft running around with weapons,calling each other bro. They seemed to be living in cities run by slaves, on every level, because Masters were too busy ...well running around playing with weapons. That said, I believe my impression may have been a hasty one.

Recently I have been persuaded that there are viable well run RP Gorean sims out there that are interested in intricate and well honed RP skills. Actually, I came to this realization since I participated in the Gorean Grid Wide hunt and had increased my exposure to more Goreans again. Now I am off in search of those sims. I am not sure that I am ready to give up my freedom and kneel as a Gorean slave.

However... a fairy can dream, can't she?

Thursday, June 4, 2009

I give up!!

Well, I tried and tried to find some man that I know to go through this hunt with me...but NOOOO!

It seems that for the most part, Dominants resent the idea of being made over. Some flatly refused, others were a bit more diplomatic about it.

It happens I do not know any submissive men, not because I do not want to. I just seem to be the sort of girl that attracts and is drawn toward Dominants...

So I came to this conclusion:

I love/like the people that I do because of who they are and part of who they are happens to the choices that they have made. That includes clothing, attachments, skin, shape, etc. Those unique choices and combinations are what make them who they are...

I am not a switch, and I most certainly am not looking for a Dom that will serve my needs or wants...

Why fight it?

It is not like most of them need it anyway...

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

What IS real life? (Defining terms)

I have heard this question or debate from several different quarters lately. This is usually paired with, but many times independent of, the oft seen phrase of sl is sl, and rl comes first. So please allow me to define what the term rl means me as well as to most of the people that I have known, in and out of world.

RL(real life) interaction takes place between 2 people, at least, who are physically in the same room. It includes RL obligations like SO(significant Other), bills, career, school, etc. There is not other way to mean RL.

What is sometimes used as an alternate definition of RL is the RL exchange that occurs with 2 people, or more, are involved in a long distance relationships. This is in no way a less valid relationship, however it does not fit the definition of a RL relationship. An LD (long distance) relationship may involve following rl directions.

Following RL directions takes place when 2 people, who may be separated by miles, time zones, or even hemispheres interact, and one is following the directions of the other in real time, either in voice or text.(sometimes cam, which carries many risks BTW)

SL or VR (Virtual Reality) is still interaction between real people in real time. However, it may be taking place between 2 people that are both in the moment, OR one/both people are simply playing a role. This would be more akin to a pure RP scenario than honest rl emotional exchange and investment of one person to another.

Does this mean that the bonds formed, the love that develops, the caring or anger that exists when in sl or vr is any less real? Not one bit! The impact that I feel, the emotional attachments, even love that develops between people on-line is very, very real.

But if I say that I live in a rl 24/7 relationship, that means still the physical presence of the 2 people involved. Please make no mistake about this. This is the commonly accepted definition.

What I have offered is strictly a definition of terms, but sometimes the discussions involving rl vs sl can be so confusing, I felt compelled to clearly deliniate between the levels of involvement.

Monday, June 1, 2009

A sigh of relief...

I have not been on line much lately. Only in short bursts. Devil of it is that rl sometimes really does come first, grrrrrr.

Imagine my surprise when I notice that my close friend Jake has placed a girl in his profile as “interesting” Actually, I think that he referred to "hidden depths". I was struck with a pang when I read that. What was the pang, I wondered? Surely, not jealousy?? I have prided myself on not being jealous. But could it be?

Actually it was not anger with him or the girl that struck me, it was a sense of loss. He has taught me so much, been so kind to me that I did not want that to stop. He has held me when I was confused and helped me to gain some perspective on my life in sl. OK yes, he has spanked me when I needed that too!

What do I care about other women? I never have before, (and there is a cast of thousands)why would I now?

I gathered myself together and sent an IM to him, though he was not on-line. The next time he was, evidently, I received a message from him (sort of a high tech fone tag?) The jist is that his on-line time has been curtailed and will be for a while, as well. Yes, there is a girl, but that has nothing to do with, and will not interfere with, his relationships with me or the other people who are so special to him. (Well I am paraphrasing, but that was the drift)

Now I can relax and return to my fairy ways, when I am able to be in world again, more often. I miss the people I care about so much. The are like rare gems that sparkle in the moonlight…precious to me. I just hope that they know how much they mean to me