Forgive me

I have been away for a couple of weeks from blogging and from SL due to some RL issues. I now have the opportunity to return and I hope that both people that read this 'blog will forgive my absence.

While I was gone to the RL that we all say comes first, I found that those people that I know in SL were not far from my thoughts. I had a chance to think of what I wanted to do with the precious time that I have to spend in SL, because for me the time is rare. and special.

I have wandered around SL and shopped and tried out new things. I have watched for the last six months and I have discovered that I have been talking about things, talking about the difference between rl and sl, but really...in sl I have been a voyeur. I have always been suspicious about voyeurs, believing them to be people that want the reflected glory without getting their hands dirty. My conclusion? What I have managed to do as well was to cheat myself. To deprive myself of experiences by just watching and not participating.

This realization came to me when I wandered onto a sim, wearing a meter in OOC mode to watch the RP. What I walked into was a firefight of some sort. Just watching I had an adrenaline rush and I thought...why am I just watching? Why am I not a part of this?

I have struggled with the moral issue of wearing 2 collars, one in rl and one in sl and have for so long thought that this dichotomy would be far too difficult for me to resolve. Turns out the issue is far easier to resolve than I thought. I spoke with my rl Master. I have parameters, (no rl, ever)

For months I have criticized those who teach about bdsm in SL without any real knowledge of rl bdsm. I have gone to their lectures and classes and noticed that those I could relate to had their roots, their knowledge in RL. They were able to enjoy SL as full participants, why couldn't I?

In rl ,if I wanted to learn to sail, I did, to play tennis, I did, to play golf I did(bored to tears, but I did.) What has been holding me back from divng in to sl and truly experiencing it to its fullest extent? Maybe a fear of failure, maybe a fear of drowning...maybe I just was not ready. Maybes ...rl and sl are full of them...Maybe I should just find out.

Secret Spots...

Well, in my wanderings I have found some places that are refining the rp. Not certain how much they want known about them. So I will say that they are out there, developing storylines. and you can find them if you want!

Some are tucked away in small spots, sort of a hub from which to base RP from and go out into the Gorean world. Not everything is as it appears to be on these sims. Peaceful villages might conceal the most dastardly of characters!

So, grab a Gorean Meter, go out and explore!

For my friends...

I did not realize until shortly after my last posting about Gor that I would get feedback so very fast.



Several people immediately felt that my posting meant that I may be in search of a Gorean collar. I was surprised by this. After having said, so many times, that I have a problem with being in the collar of different people, in different worlds. (rl/sl)

Gor~

As much as I have loved being on Gor in the past, I am not sure that it is possible for me to be a woman on Gor without wearing a collar of some sort. Well, I have no interest in being a FW or a Panther, and I certainly have no interest in changing my gender! I put so much of myself into the role that I play, even in RP that it can be a bit disturbing, and is not simply a game where I am disengaged from the avi.

For the moment, I am wandering around Gor, when I have the chance. I am not sure where any of this will lead. One thing I learned long ago is never to say never. However, at the moment I like who I am, and where I am, so it is highly unlikely that I would want to change anything about my circumstance.

GOR-addiction or what?

OK, I will say it here and in public. My name is Pippa and I like Gor. I think that some of the best RP occurs there. I happen to like the defined roles. This is a type of addiction that keeps drawing me back.

It is where I started in RP, before there was an SL. Gor is where I learned to crawl, to walk, and to crawl again, if needed. (RP wise that is)

I love the ritual, the clearly defined roles, the black and whiteness of it all.

That being said, I have been disillusioned by what I have seen on SL Gor. From my scant wanderings and from talking to a few people, I have had the impression of a bunch of exiles from World of Warcraft running around with weapons,calling each other bro. They seemed to be living in cities run by slaves, on every level, because Masters were too busy ...well running around playing with weapons. That said, I believe my impression may have been a hasty one.

Recently I have been persuaded that there are viable well run RP Gorean sims out there that are interested in intricate and well honed RP skills. Actually, I came to this realization since I participated in the Gorean Grid Wide hunt and had increased my exposure to more Goreans again. Now I am off in search of those sims. I am not sure that I am ready to give up my freedom and kneel as a Gorean slave.

However... a fairy can dream, can't she?

Gorean Grid Wide Hunt!

I spent some time last night following the Gorean hunt. Had stumbled upon it while shopping and decided to start at the beginning and follow the path where it led me. OK, once again I am astounded by the creativity of the people on sl!



I am only about a third of the way through, and I was lucky enough to hook up with a couple of other hunters... the more eyes the better, I always say! My favorite, so far has been a place that makes musical instruments! If you have the time, join in the fun!Hope I see you there!

On a side note:
Actually, I had started this hunt after running through the lag(insert a chuckle about the word running, here) at Twisted and Spoiled, for their hunt. Such cute things in that store! However the patrons had to strip themselved of any HUDs, prim objects (including some hair), and even tossed AOs so that they could actually move. What we women will do for a bargain! (I flatly refuse to lose the AO, myself)

These are my very first hunts, and I had fun! Have not opened any boxes yet, so not sure if it is worth the effort, but I did get to see some stores and some merchandise I did not know existed, so I think that the point is made. Try it sometime!