Saturday, May 9, 2009

Mirror images

Wow, I have had more than a few comments, in IM, about my last post when I last logged on. Let me be clear, about something. I am not denigrating sl Master/slave relationships. There is a clear bond between this sort of meeting of the minds. However, if you are someone that is acting out submission without ever having knelt at someone's feet. how do you know how that truly feels? You and I sit here, behind the safety of a screen.For example, I was told once of a wedding on sl where the bride interrupted the ceremony with something like ((brb, my Ramen noodles are ready)) You tell me, how committed was she?

When I am here, rping that I am being tied to a post,spoken to in a certain manner, and then I am spanked, used or whatever...I have a very real visceral memory/connection to the real life experience and my response to the scene is multiplied exponentially. I understand, without doubt, what it takes to place myself in the hands of someone who has me helpless, and in his/her thrall.

I also know what it is like to live the experience 24/7. There are dimensions that I never could have imagined, had I not lived through them in rl. There are many tests to this sort of relationship, since it is not accepted conventionally, it remains under wraps. I have been called an anticipatory slave. "Thoughtful" is the vanilla word for it, I think. Vanilla friends have expressed concern at my "submissive" attitude. Please know that the most important word in a D/s relationship, is relationship. Maybe this is why I do not seek or wear a collar. I dearly love the people that I interact here, but I wonder if I am able to wear two collars? I know that people have a marriage in the real world and one here on sl, but is that me? For now I am content the way things are.

So if you are strictly in an sl relationship, please do not feel defensive or think that I mean that you are less committed. What I am saying is this... There are dimensions to your psyche that you cannot explore from behind a desk. For me, it was so much better to push off from the dock and set sail on an ocean of discovery , exploring in ways I had only imagined until then. That was the right course for me, it is up to you to choose the path for you.

BTW, from the day I met my Master, I have not played in rl with anyone other than him.

Friday, May 8, 2009

This Side of the Looking Glass

Every time I read something that is said by anyone on sl that they like this or that...some small part of me wonders if they have any rl experience with this particular activity. It is not always about D/s. There are a lot of other things as well.

So about me in rl:
I like Art museums, History Museums, Traveling, Chocolate Martinis, Dancing, Soft Jazz, Hard Rock, Massages, Manicures, Entire weekends of lovemaking, Eating popcorn in bed.

I do not like people that are mean-spirited, bullies or anyone who does not find it somewhere within themselves to find the tiniest amount of compassion.
Yes, in rl or even here, on sl.

In rl D/s:
I love long, long sessions that build 'till I am so deeply in subspace I do not know up from down, in from out, back from front...but ohhh my, I feel so safe and warm, and cared for that...only one thing exists for me there...nothing else can penetrate.

I have played both sides of the coin in rl, when I was learning where my heart truly resides. I still hear from the male submissives that I knew from that short period of my life. Sometimes, while on sl, I still explore my more dom side. But life, even an sl life, is too short to be something that you are not.

So that is me, I live what I talk about here. I know the pitfalls, and the peaks of ecstasy

Maybe I do not wear pixel wings here in rl, but I have been known to fly!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Some nice down time...

While my rl has been so very busy, the few times I have managed to squeeze into world, I am just happy to spent a precious minute or two with a friend, just relaxing...

A drama free zone indeed!!

Well, for now...

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Another spanking???

Whether in the spirit of competition, or some sort of nesting thing, my good friend also decided that I needed a spanking...

When it rains, it pours, eh?

Within days of the incident, the said lady was in labor and gave birth to two beautiful twin girls! Not that I am taking credit for anything...
you never know!

PS~Thank the heaven's that the lady chose to bend the rules about panties for the twins to allow nappies otherwise Glint and Nayeli would be a far less pleasant place to be walking barefoot!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Corporate Loss

Recently I was pointed toward a sim with a Corporate theme. ALA "Mad Men"What I discovered when I arrived was ...well... to say that the build was impressive, would be a gross understatement. It is beautiful! A perfect mix of corporate presentation with non PC behavior, running rampant!

According to the rules on the notecard, only group members were allowed to interact, sexually. I am told that this is strictly enforced and I was questioned in an rathere assertive manner to ascertain whether or not I am a child. (I am well under the normal 6'8" woman.) I was glad of such diligence! Also, each time I visited, (4 times) there was an active, and involved group of roleplayers present. All were very upset that the corporation was going to shut down at the end of May. (The storyline at present is the current economy is to blame for the shutdown, it seems.)Many thought of the place as home.I think that the owner describes the point behind the sim, please allow me to quote from the notecard:

The "story" of the company is that we provide Sex Therapy services and counseling for the general public. While the Sex Therapists will roleplay here working with clients, the office itself will be like many real life office environments, but here we can act out our erotic fantasies with co-workers. We have a corporate business setting where intelligent and creative men and women can act out their erotic fantasies.

What does CMNF mean? It stands for Clothed Male, Nude Female roleplay. This is roleplay that appeals to women who like the idea of flirting with powerful men and engaging in public exhibitionism. Women who like the idea of submitting sexually to intelligent and creative men tend to like CMNF roleplay.

Men are requested to wear business attire and may add an erect penis when using the pose balls. Men should remain clothed during sex and just extend the penis.

Women are encouraged to wear seductive and sheer clothing, or to be at least partially nude during roleplay. Full nudity is also permitted for women, but it is more fun to start clothed and then let the executives strip you.
Due to recent region changes in SL, this facility will be closing at the end of May 2009. As a result, we are not accepting additional members to the group.

The rumor is that since this corporation will be considered an adult area, it must be moved. Moving something that is this intricate is not easily done and evidently, not something that the owner wishes to do at this time.

So,a subject that held little interest for me, has drawn my attention...the new adult content policy. Being new on SL, maybe I have a unique perspective. Let me first say that IMHO LL should have separated PG areas from Mature/Adult themed areas from the get go. But sadly, for whatever reason, that was not done.

"Adult" areas are being told that they have to move somewhere else. I keep imagining something seedy like Potterville. Remember Potterville? That was the name of the sinister town that existed because George Bailey had never been born, in "It's Wonderful Life" Makes me shudder~

Island sims are not involved...yet. Also, one has to be verified as an adult to even see these places in search, from what I understand. What is being created appears to be a sort of caste system, and that makes me a bit uncomfortable.

Still, none of this has affected me, personally, as yet, we must verify as an adult by either giving a social security number or a credit card. Done. Hmmm I have to wonder about the motive in this action?
Whenever I try to understand motivation in business, I always remember the adage always follow the money. I plan to sit back and watch. I doubt that anything that happens next will surprise me, never know!

I have included a short videa tour of the facility..enjoy!Meanwhile, I have to hope that the owner of this corporation will reconsider his decision. It is unique, well constructed, and well run, from everything that I have heard so far! If you get a chance to see it, please do!